Too many horrid memories. I am a big wound. Suffered mountains of pain and soul shattering torture. I don’t have the energy to struggle anymore.To be in the truth of my trauma. Dead end. Reached the bottom of the deepest darkest ocean. I have become mute now after too much torture. I have become numb…. Read More

Egon blacklisted

I am blacklisting Egon, an old fart working in a health store, ego based in a small village in Västerbotten county, northern Sweden. He was preaching to me about Jesus. It tore up old wounds in me.He was Saying “let Jesus into your life” and saying that I should not question Christianity and the Bible… Read More

Neighbors and the landlord blacklisted

I am really too traumatized right now to be writing this blog-post. My complex PTSD has become unbearable. I am having difficulty thinking clearly and speaking and doing things because of extreme trauma but it felt really important to write this post. I’m blacklisting some of my neighbors and the landlord of my apartment building… Read More