Hei, I’m Sophia. I’m finnish sámi but was born in northern Sweden. Moved around a lot but today I am currently residing in Umeå, northern Sweden.
Most of my life I’ve been very traumatized. When I was 3 years old my father raped me. When I was 7 years old I was group raped and cut with a knife. For the biggest part of my life my mother verbally and emotionally abused me to the point that I almost completely broke down. Then after I broke contact with her she stalked me persistently. I was also physically abused by my fathers wife. Later in life I was also harassed and terrorized for years by some people. Also went through lots of other heavy stuff that I’m not going to go into right now.
All this trauma led to complex PTSD, agoraphobia, panic attacks, eating disorders, severe hormonal imbalance which almost broke me down completely, illness, deep depression, seven suicide attempts that did not work, and finally almost complete isolation in the end because of a loss of trust in humanity.
No words in the universe can describe the horrendous torture I’ve endured in the deepest depths of the abyss. Mountains of pain are heavy to carry. Cried too many oceans of tears. The traumas made me suffer through such horrid torture sessions of extreme pain and indescribable terror that felt like every cell in my body was being raped and killed. The suffering I have endured is beyond what any living person would be able to survive. It’s a huge miracle that I am living today because I’m stonedead inside. I’m just existing in some strange fucking way…
On this blog you can read some of my heavy stuff and poetry, blacklistings and see some of my clothing designs and more. To visit my store Kaikki, click here: https://www.zazzle.com/store/kaikki