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My trauma is serious I am blacklisting the psychiatry at NUS in Umeå, Sweden. I was signed out from the psychiatry wednesday last week. I was in compulsory care for about 19 days. The psycho psychiatry staff treated me horrendously psycho. I am so deeply shocked and shattered. They don’t have the competence to meet and treat an extremely traumatized and raped person because most of them are psycho. Their behavior was… Read More

Too many horrid memories. I am a big wound. Suffered mountains of pain and soul shattering torture. I don’t have the energy to struggle anymore.To be in the truth of my trauma. Dead end. Reached the bottom of the deepest darkest ocean. I have become mute now after too much torture. I have become numb. Everything slips from my hands and drops down on the floor. I am in a constant state… Read More

I am really too traumatized right now to be writing this blog-post. My complex PTSD has become unbearable. I am having difficulty thinking clearly and speaking and doing things because of extreme trauma but it felt really important to write this post. I’m blacklisting some of my neighbors and the landlord of my apartment building at Himlastigen 52 Umeå, Sweden. I am extremely pissed off because of the unfair treatment of me… Read More

Since I drifted away at sea, I’ve had horrid nightmares.A scarab crawling up the wall.Resurgence at the door. I feel the truth circulating.What’s true for you in this moment? In the swirling clouds? Processing while in deep sleep and experiencing the core of the matter.Drifted away on the waves of the stormy sea and ended up here.Can feel the clouds swirling.Can feel those bleeding parts.Razorsharp red blazing flashbacks. Trace back to the… Read More

It’s 5 in the morning and I’m out on the moor in the fog because I can’t sleep.It feels like my spirit wants to leave the body.Don’t want to know of anything.I’ve been walking out on the moor for too many centuries now.Years of tears.After the storms gather yourselfand pick up the pieces again and again. Laying still in shock. Paralyzed because of soulshattering terror.Upload and unleash all those plaguey voices from… Read More

So traumatized I can barely function. Died so many times inside I’m not living. I’m just existing in some strange fucking way. I sleep all day to forget it all. I’ll repress everything in this exile I’m in. I shut my thoughts off because I can’t take this anymore. I am in deep shock. I do not feel good sitting and dwelling on all the trauma that’s been. This prolonged torture and fumbling… Read More